加拿大覺友 美玉 (2020年7月)
初學有感
感恩！
能參加這個全程靜坐班，太幸運了，短短3個月，令我彷彿進入人生另一階段！
我出生體弱多病，不足百日便遭父母遺棄，幸好遇到好心人，把氣弱柔絲的我，從寒風中抱回家，如珠如寶，節衣縮食，悉心育養，如今快70歲，身體依然孱弱，百病纏身。
1999
年，由香港移居多倫多，一年後丈夫因病離世。幾年後，兒子學成回港，我與媽媽相依為命，2016年退休，幾個月後媽媽不能行走，入住安老院，我則先後做過
割除甲狀線、眼角黃膜、白內障等手術；甲狀線手術做得不好，令我很容易抽筋，夜不能𥧌，加上關節疼痛，舉步艱難，痛苦不堪，身心疲憊。2020年，確診
患上乳癌，先後做了化療及左胸切除手術，身體弱不禁風，容易氣喘疲累，腳軟難行。
2022年4月，參加了楊洪老師的靜坐班，首兩周懞懞懂
懂，對老師的說話領會不多，只能坐到8分鐘，要做多次習慣才能勉強多做幾分鐘，後來老師說，不要害怕及阻止發自內心的郁動，才開始改善，靜坐時間慢慢增
長！靜坐期間雜念紛陳，歌曲此起彼落，又不斷自言自語，約三周左右，有影像出現，見到自己，有時還有兩個一前一後，很是活潑；亦有其他片段閃動，身體會不
由自主的郁動！第4周的一次靜坐時，意外地進入了非常美妙的狀態；突然感到無比愉悅，看到自己笑，笑得很開心，身體向後靠，雙手舉起仰面向天，嘴部張開呼
吸，我不知我這個動作維持了多久，沒有倒下，也不覺累！明明閉目，甚麼也看不到，卻感覺自己在笑，是列嘴而笑，並感到在遠處有著無限喜悅，太美妙了，是如
此的開心平靜，真不想醒來！不過後來有兩次靜坐時卻放聲大哭，淚如雨下，但之後感覺很是良好，有點如悉重負變輕鬆！
2個月後靜坐時間增長，影像與歌曲減少，有時感到一片混沌，甚麼也沒有，非常平靜，有時又會四肢郁動，身軀搖晃，還有具針對性的按摩拍打。我完全感到靜坐帶來的自癒力量：睡眠質素變好、抽筋減少，行動自如！人比前精神，開朗了！
靜坐真的很神奇，正如老師講，只要堅持、努力，靜坐能使我們覺知生命，心態轉變，充滿正能量，改善健康，自強自救，開開心心面對每一天！我真心希望能有更多人參加靜坐，重新享受生命！我們在多倫多很幸運，得楊老師不求名利，悉心教導，機會難得，大家要珍惜！
美玉，2022年7月
Translation (translation team)
Written by: Canadian meditator May Yuk (July, 2020)
My feeling as beginners of meditation
Grateful!
I
am so lucky to be able to participate in this All-Stages meditation
class. In just 3 months, it makes me feel like I have progressed
into another stage of my life!
I was born weak and sick, and was
abandoned by my parents in less than a hundred days after birth.
Fortunately, I met kindhearted people who took me home from the cold
wind that I was found weak and silky. They treated me like jewels
and treasures, eat less food, buy less clothes in order to nurture me.
Now I am almost 70 years old, and my body is still weak and riddled
with many diseases.
In year 1999, I migrated to Toronto from
Hong Kong. A year later, my husband died of illness. A few years
later, my son returned to Hong Kong after completing his studies. My
mother and I depended on each other. I retired in 2016. After a few
months, my mother could not walk and she was then admitted to a nursing
home. I had undergone surgeries such as removal of the thyroid
line, corneal membrane, and cataract. As the thyroid line surgery was
not done well, that made me prone to cramps, unable to sleep at night,
and also the joint pain that made me difficult to walk, I was painful
and exhausted. In 2020, I was diagnosed with breast cancer, and
underwent chemotherapy and left thoracic surgery successively. My body
is weak and fragile, gasp for breathe and tired, and the feet are weak
and difficult to walk.
In April 2022, I participated in Mr.
Yeung Hung’s meditation class. In the first two weeks, I was so
incomprehensible, as I didn't understand much of the teacher's words. I
could only sit to meditate for 8 minutes. Mr. Yeung encouraging me and
told me not to afraid and to stop the restless thinking of my mind,
accordingly, It started to improve, the meditation time is gradually
increasing! During the meditation, I had a lot of distracting thoughts,
songs came and went, and I kept talking to myself. About three weeks or
so, some image appeared, I saw myself, and sometimes there were two in
tandem, very lively;
There are also other fragments flashing,
and my body moved involuntarily! During a meditation in the 4th week, I
unexpectedly entered a very wonderful state; I suddenly felt extremely
happy, seeing myself laughing, I laughed happily, leaned my body back,
raised my arms and to face the sky, opened my mouth to breathe, I don't
know how long I kept doing this, I didn't fall down, and I didn't feel
tired! I closed my eyes and couldn't see anything, but I felt I was
laughing. I laughed and felt infinite joy ahead, so wonderful, so happy
and peaceful, I really don't want to wide awake! But later on, it
happened twice when I do meditation, in that I burst into tears and
cried loud, and the tears fell like rain, but after that I felt very
good, and I felt relaxed like dropped off a burden!
After 2 months,
the meditation time has increased, and the appearance of images and
songs have decreased. Sometimes I feel chaotic, empty, very calm, and
sometimes my limbs move, my body shakes, and there are targeted
massages and slaps. I totally feel the healing power of meditation:
better sleep quality, less cramps, and freedom of body movement! Full
of spirit and more cheerful than before!
Meditation is really
amazing. As Mr. Yeung said, as long as we persist and work hard,
meditation can make us aware of life, change our mentality, be full of
positive energy, improve our health, to strengthen and help ourselves,
and face every day happily! I sincerely hope that more people
will join the meditation and enjoy life again! We are very fortunate in
Toronto that Mr. Yeung does not seek fame and fortune, but teaches
heartfully. This is a rare opportunity, and everyone should cherish it!
May Yuk, July 2022